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I Guess I Need You
March 15th 2000
Okay, so we aren’t the perfect couple living the perfect lifestyle, in the right time or the right place, but it doesn’t matter to us. We’re happy, and more importantly, we’re in love.
It hasn’t been your typical romance story, but we’re not your typical people, for many reasons.
I’d love for us to be a couple I public, but circumstances prevent us from being able to. For one, he is my teacher, and I’m head girl. Add in the following facts and you may realise why it is impossible. He is an undercover spy for Dumbledore in Voldemort’s inner circle. I’m half his age, we’re in the middle of a war, I’m a muggleborn and what we’re doing is illegal. Pretty messy, huh?
The rational, rule-abiding Hermione Granger inside of me screams that what we’re doing is wrong, I could be expelled! She tells me that he is the feared greasy git of the dungeons, and a death eater to boot! But her anxiety and protests are silenced when I see him. Then, she shouts that what we are is so right, its how its meant to be! That he is worth risking expulsion, that he is my world. The man who consumes me, the man who loves me, as I am, for who I am. That I should never leave him, or even doubt him. Then, I’m powerless! I’d do anything for him, I cant be around him enough.
I drown in his voice, his hands, his scent, his eyes, his very being. So wonderful, he makes me feel alive. He IS my life. My reason to fight this war. I can sleep easier at night knowing that when it is over, we’ll be free. Free to show our love, instead of hiding it away as though it is a bad thing, free to marry, and free to move on together with a safe future that we’ve worked so hard for.
To think a year ago, I feared and despised the dark, mysterious professor makes me laugh. If I was told then that I’d be in love with him now, I’d have laughed myself stupid at the idea! But now, I cannot believe I didn’t notice how wonderful he is sooner!
I first started to notice that he wasn’t as he appeared was when we began working together on developing potions to help us in the war. Spending late nights in the potions lab soon grew unbearable for us both when we were constantly at each other’s throats. We came to an easy truce, and discovered how alike we really are. A steady relationship grew, blossoming into friendship, and then into something more. I cherish every minute I spend with him, even more so now that I know the final battle is almost upon us.
Of course we’re careful, and it breaks my heart every time he insults me in class, even though I know he doesn’t mean it, that he must do so to keep up appearances. But every scathing comment reminds me of how things used to be, and makes me realise that I could still lose him. This hurts even more.
Without him, I’m cold. My soul feels empty, like his is a part of me that is torn away every time I leave him. But when I’m with him, I’m complete. Its so perfect, I can’t imagine life without him.
And that’s what scares me.
I don’t think I would be able to go on without him. I’d be living a life of darkness, the light of my life would be lost. Ironic, really, that without the dark, brooding lover, my life would become dark and cold. I’d be empty without his love.
I guess I need him.
A/N first in a short series, my second story here at whispers! Any comments/ideas are always appreciated, as are reviews!!! (but please try not to flame me…Constructive Criticism is welcome… but I am flammable burn easily!!!)
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I Guess I Need You by Sophie